For Christmas I give you love.
It’s no lie that I have had to deal with a lot of pain in my life. There have been many times where I have wondered why any of it has happened to me.
What’s great about the pain is that it caused me to take a deep look at the world around me. I have seen through observation what power people have over others. It’s not all horrible. It’s actually amazing what a little gesture can do for someone.
What’s difficult is how so many people live behind whatever persona they have created for themselves. They spend so much time trying to maintain this that they completely forget what’s most important. What really sad about this is that most of these people are dealing with so much themselves and not even addressing their issues.
I spent a lot of time in my younger days trying to live a lifestyle. I worked two jobs through high school and college trying to create this. Then when I was 19, my apartment burned down and I lost everything. I didn’t even have things like underwear or socks. It was an eye opener because even though I didn’t have these things, I was still able to live.
But still I got sucked back into living a lifestyle. I lived this way for many years. It wasn’t until I was heartbroken and the life I always knew was gone, that I fully snapped out of it. I was broke, I didn’t have my kids with me every day and I felt completely alone and helpless. I feared so much what people would think of me, the judgements they would have and I had every insecurity that I could possibly have. I didn’t feel good about myself.
But what’s crazy is this. People still loved and cared about me. The most random people came out of the woodwork to just say hello and see how I was doing. I didn’t understand why anyone would do anything for me. I felt like a loser.
However the love continued. It was heartbreaking in the most amazing way. My heart grew so much that all I can now is love. I could honestly care less about having anything I had before. I’m so content with everything that I do have and it has nothing to do with materialistic things. That stuff is just a bunch of bullshit as far as I’m concerned.
So if any of you have ever wondered what you can do to help me or anyone?……cut the crap. If the only things that make you happy are things that cost money, ask yourself….Does your life have any meaning???? Have you ever done anything for anyone else that made you feel good or that caused someone else to feel love?
We all have so much power. We need to use it wisely. Always think about others. Always live through how you feel in your heart. Share your love with others! Hug as many people as you can! Most of all….believe in people. They will always surprise you